Transient Stalker

Transient Stalker


She don't dream no more

By monster spank

i slept forever and when i wokeup
forever i would never be the same forever.
i can't wait forever. forever i wait.

i am awake forever and when i slept
forever i would never be the same forever.
i don't wait forever. forever i don't wait.

  • Posted on: Fri, Aug 5 2005 12:19 AM

Ramen Messenger

By monster spank

awaken, my akindred.

  • Posted on: Wed, Aug 3 2005 11:40 PM

Foliage gliding instructions

By monster spank

its abrupt, the arrival of 2am and 4am...
but even that has become cliche to me when
i was reintroduced to the sunrise arrival of 6am.

i'm sorry that i didn't wake you up when
you woke up that i didn't wake you up.

  • Posted on: Wed, Aug 3 2005 11:10 PM

Stop thinking too much

By monster spank

contrived and completely out of place.
too obvious and too "does not belong here."
complementary, perhaps. but everything
shouldve been left as is. execute that motherfucker!

  • Posted on: Tue, Aug 2 2005 11:42 PM

Five times two hours plus one

By monster spank

Every element random, except one.
Instead of seven, there was only five.
Arriving at the chosen destination without a map,
lunch came first. Surrounded by only old things and
left alone to wander, it began. The first garden sighted,
a flowing fountain protected by a breeze.
In the fountain, a turtle!

Through an ancient door, all entered.
On the walls, more paintings of people long dead.
Behind the glass cases, countless curiosities.
Three black tickets, three tiny plastic cups of iced tea.
One blue stub, biscuits!

The second sighting, a marvelous garden.
In the garden, a more intricate fountain.
In the fountain, fish!
On the aged adobe stones, hungry doves!
Surrounding all of these, other wondrous configurations.
Watching over everything, a massive facade.
(The old brick, witness to wars and other things.)

To remember, two necklaces made of wood.
Coffee with frothed milk and almonds, latte.
Cigarettes smoldering under the umbrella, rain fell from the sky.
Bumper to bumper, the journey home.
A shaved eyebrow, paid back with straightened hair.
Gathering one last time, food was shared.

Content, satisfied.
Imagining, pretending.

Except one, every element random.


  • Posted on: Tue, Aug 2 2005 2:17 AM

the soul of where i live

By monster spank

sensing and feeling for it at the wrong time and at the
wrong coordinates caused delay and confusion.
but ill find it again, eventually. thanks my akindred.

it feels much closer now.


  • Posted on: Mon, Aug 1 2005 2:05 AM

Billions of nerve cells called neurons

By monster spank

when? forever.
why? because you are possessed.
possessed? influenced or controlled by something
(as an evil spirit or a passion). so when? whenever.
why? because i am possessed.
possessed? captivated or fascinated by something
(as an evil spirit or a passion). so when? if ever.
why? because you are possessed and i am possessed.
possessed? you influenced and controlled by something
me captivated and fascinated by something
(as an evil spirit or a passion). so when? never.

what next? nothing.
so, more of the same? apparently, so.
do you still dream? only when my eyes are closed.
forever? forever.


  • Posted on: Fri, Jul 29 2005 5:03 PM

Hesitant primordial valves

By monster spank

the x-ray confirmed that someone stole my heart
and replaced it with this piece of shit contraption,
when i wasnt looking. my search engine found me
a perfect match.

  • Posted on: Wed, Jul 27 2005 10:01 PM

Prolific processes denied

By monster spank

how fucking uncanny can it be when a
fucking muddy puddle was staring at me
while my fucking stupid mind was like
fucking a mental hospital? i need to
find some fucking brain cells to jumpstart the
fucking production of some fucking thoughts...
fuck that fuck it all. til my next fuck...
have a fucking nice day!


  • Posted on: Tue, Jul 26 2005 10:19 PM

Liquids from the sky

By monster spank

i walked in the rain and got my feet wet. won't let yours
get wet. i said i'll carry you.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jul 25 2005 6:55 PM

Do anything you want

By monster spank

I (re)discovered a new timezone:
5am (tho' it did seem familiar to me).
although the sun was yet to reveal itself, there was
a dark glow in the sky probably only seen by
anyone looking... my entireness felt
shredded from the blend of consumption(ess), sleeplessness,
lightness... and the heaviness of all those little things
at that moment. let me read you some more. comment one
last time...it's 6am.

wake up my akindred.


  • Posted on: Sun, Jul 24 2005 11:21 PM

All things unconsidered

By monster spank

  • Posted on: Sat, Jul 23 2005 4:01 AM

Ten years in one second

By monster spank

desolate and thirsty. alone and hungry.
bright and blurry. crazy and true. quiet and noisy.
twisted and beautiful. evil and lovely.
soft and thorny. fat and ugly.
thin and happy. slim and sweaty. raw and tasty.
alive and dead. read and reply. abrasive and nice.
novel and cliche. profound and stupid.
pirated and original. horny and prude.
digital and handmade. forward and sideways.
smiling and staring. curious and boring.
imagining and realizing.
i'll stop now. i'll start again. now. with you.

i'll stop again. now.


  • Posted on: Wed, Jul 20 2005 10:17 PM

No such thing as a straight line

By monster spank

There goes the heavens again mocking the
earthbound. Making them stumble.
Only the heartless monster took pleasure
in the constant warping of the space-time
continuum. To them it was not without its
comedy to observe the weak take their daily
mocking without self-regard. It was when
the short scraggly one on the left shouted
"change the channel to the weather
station already!" that alarm gripped them.
After all, Spank was in charge of the
remote control today.

  • Posted on: Tue, Jul 19 2005 9:42 PM


By monster spank

The sighting of two oxygen tanks coupled
on an industrial wheelbarrow is a
phenomenon perceived to be better than sex.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jul 18 2005 9:32 PM

Failure of analysis (undescribable)

By monster spank

Stuck in bumper-to-bumper-to-bumper like a parking
lot traffic jam.
Amidst the squalid everything, barefoot innocence,
smiling faces, and miserableness
-- a defiant attack against reality painted
happy green. A conglomeration (composition) of hopes,
dreams, found objects, prized possessions, and more!

  • Posted on: Mon, Jul 18 2005 12:32 AM

Intensely out of focus (denial)

By monster spank

Put it all in a bag, please. I've had enough.
Stop wasting time inefficiently. The soup
tasted saltier than salt. I couldnt speak again.
internal revelation reruns, 36 hours, 7 beers,
13 cigarettes, rice, coffee, shades, inanities,
korean products, umbrella (rain!), new billboard,
one hidden smile, 30 euros, 24 floors, sirens,
spring onion flavored crackers, politics,
storewide sale, basement 3, door close button,
instant ramen (wanton flavor),
walking (regretting). It's time, again. can't wait.
get settled, open my laptop, chat, read you, hear
you, smoke another 13 cigarettes or so, sleep, then
dream... can't wait anymore. can't stand this any
longer. i want to see. i want to kiss. i want to
touch. the one behind the words, the voice...

  • Posted on: Fri, Jul 15 2005 10:44 PM

Crush all meaning into oblivion

By monster spank

there was a conversation, an exchange of emails.
mobile calls. what was said, forgotten.
to not speak aches. inward stares require specs
installed behind the eyeballs. external blankness
must not reflect internal content. all lines are down.
mental roadblocks dominate the route to salvation.
look no further, the solution escapes... all of me.

  • Posted on: Thu, Jul 14 2005 10:24 PM

Cesium Fountain Atomic Clock

By monster spank

it's always suddenly 2am unless its suddenly 4am.
i gave up "killing time..." so i just go with the flow,
walk really fast, drive like a maniac, and set my
watch 15 minutes ahead, so instead of being
30 minutes late, i arrive disheveled only half
that time behind schedule (late again!).
it's silly, i know, but it works for me most of
the time (sometimes i arrive too early, and
i hate that). see? its 2am again! (or 1:45)

  • Posted on: Thu, Jul 14 2005 2:03 AM

Enforced Structural Stupidity

By monster spank

Next time you start to destroy something,
make sure you finish it.
(There used to be a mountain here.)

  • Posted on: Tue, Jul 12 2005 9:22 PM


By monster spank

Drifting in and out of consciousness hypnotized by
your voice, enthralled by your words.
The last remembered scene, a friend's painful laughter.
Now, all i hear is silence. i better pack-up and leave. It's time.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jul 11 2005 10:49 PM

Another again not new undefinitions

By monster spank

Thought traffic forever stuck in a loop. Subroutines frozen.
Tomorrow looks the same but maybe not as dark.
What's next? The wasteland offers more of the same
deep nothingness, an abyss with rest stops, drive thrus,
and stopovers.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jul 11 2005 1:26 AM

Lightcatcher: Crucifixconfig

By monster spank

i ran it spurts but stepped on the dog's foot.
the entire spectrum, just shine the light on...

  • Posted on: Sat, Jul 9 2005 8:35 PM


By monster spank

/coerced to play a role in the play /
/ i didn't know what to do /
/ i just fell into it /
/ So, it begins, again /
/ the script without connection /
/ a continuous blur /
/nothing is going anywhere/
/ you were there/
/lead me/

  • Posted on: Fri, Jul 8 2005 3:19 PM


By monster spank

Drained and rusted, i forced myself awake.
It wasn't such an awful day and unlike me,
the night was young, offering more time to
meditate my eyelids. Recover from the
process of breathing air...

  • Posted on: Wed, Jul 6 2005 8:33 PM

To feel you always.

By monster spank

Before the rain, i saw you looking.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jul 4 2005 11:36 PM


By monster spank

A wall asleep. See the dreams growing from below?
They are weeds, I must destroy them. The interference
disrupts the pattern. Tomorrow, I will ignore all nuances
of self, smoke the joint of existence and get stoned
on indifference. Only for me.

Roll your own.

  • Posted on: Sun, Jul 3 2005 11:00 PM

Post afterimage dementia

By monster spank

i still feel your soul upon me, enraged,
but even that it is, the pause pleases me.

  • Posted on: Sun, Jul 3 2005 3:33 AM

Totally Inebriated

By monster spank

Transformed into zombies, everyone proceeded
to cross the threshold into the moral void.

  • Posted on: Fri, Jul 1 2005 8:13 PM

it is, essentially.

By monster spank

it was, essentially.

  • Posted on: Fri, Jul 1 2005 7:14 PM


By monster spank

where is it, the switch?
i wish to extinguish your evil.

  • Posted on: Thu, Jun 30 2005 5:31 PM

From the moment i wake up

By monster spank

But still even deeper than that,
i felt a pang of undescribable sorrow.

  • Posted on: Thu, Jun 30 2005 5:29 PM

Lights were shining inside my belly

By monster spank

Do you belong here? Are you here for the dessert?
Both. Its gonna be superb you know, the dessert.
Superb? I thought it was just some kind of gelato?
It is, but the magic kind. You can't blend magic
things into gelato.
Who said anything about blending?
You're gonna sprinkle it with magic?
The magic's gone.
where'd it go?
There never was.
Can I have more sushi?

  • Posted on: Tue, Jun 28 2005 5:21 PM

Pathetic Setup #4

By monster spank

moss on pvc and glass ready for salad
On the stage with flashing lights,
languid refreshments that remind...

of another being.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jun 27 2005 11:19 pm

don't stop harder

By monster spank

map from my backpack
how do i get there? (how did i get here?)
i gave you a map from my backpack.
( why am i here?) you promised me you'll lap dance.

  • Posted on: Fri, Jun 24 2005 6:43 PM

i was wrong about promising that i saw her smile

By monster spank

perfume and cigarettes
your blood is so high and you keep using it on me.
nourishment is what i need. gin tonics and a glass of water
at the fox and hounds.

  • Posted on: Thu, Jun 23 2005 6:40 PM


By monster spank

the opposite of lightness... being an ironic ass.
imagine if smith, sylvian, and hitchcock were a
pop-acoustic trio and got together to beat
up lloyd cole. but the day, it was fast and it was slow,
you know that. we chat about it (if not every night, every
fucking chance we get). the rain, so prevalent,
there's a filmy, mossy growth on almost everything,
i'll try to show you later. virtual time. i refuse to hear you.
i refuse to read you. not tonight. i refuse to use
an umbrella, i'd rather deny there's water falling from the sky.
soaked, i emerge and enter the lobby, my clothes,
my being, feeling heavy, cold and rusty.

  • Posted on: Wed, Jun 22 2005 1:47 AM

Message from the Icarus Tree

By monster spank

don't jump to high, i might bite you.

  • Posted on: Tue, Jun 21 2005 12:09 AM


By monster spank

but you left me hanging.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jun 20 2005 1:03 AM

Just forget it about it

By monster spank

your face looks like a smiling paPaya TREE.
but it's nice.

  • Posted on: Sun, Jun 19 2005 3:07 AM

Light Catchers

By monster spank

they catch the sun and spin a kaleidoscope
of lightbeams at the speed of light.
dozens of them hang from trees in various
configurations. at night, they emit rainbow
reflections (almost invisible) from even
the dimmest glow. their sexless, functional,
and shiny selves doomed to the landfill
because of buffer overruns, instead,
they spin happily and endlessly to catch
any luminance and reflect a more interesting
and more beautiful point of view.

  • Posted on: Sat, Jun 18 2005 8:12 PM

Temporary Internet Folder 2

By monster spank

It felt like rain, an unfriendly conversation.
One teaspoon of brown sugar only. She called back
to say something almost predictable and said that was all.
After everything, nothing? Tired and not hungry.

  • Posted on: Fri, Jun 17 2005 10:20 PM

Brain Usage Warning (Critical)

By monster spank

Inbound: My brain is running out of thoughtspace
and is processing everything in abrupt segments.
Nothing is making sense.

Helpdesk: Please remove some memories from
this account, or ask the supreme administrator
(awesomedictatorprincess)to increase your thought quota.
You have currently used 90.44% of what your
silly brain can absorb.

  • Posted on: Thu, Jun 16 2005 4:35 PM


By monster spank


  • Posted on: Thu, Jun 16 2005 4:28 PM

Unsettled Turning Signal Assembly

By monster spank

Please wake me up my alarm clock.
I have lived this dream nearly long enough.
I am prepared for stage-3 of the next vision.
I promise not to drink beer by
the grotto. If I do, I will not mock the statue of
the tiny, lady god. My eyes are still closed
although i hear the whining dog.

  • Posted on: Wed, Jun 15 2005 11:00 PM

Footprint of a tiny god.

By monster spank

No wonder everyone was laughing. Obscurity was no
longer an option. Calendar when transience i meet.
Nothing else will have impact. Go to sleep and stop
playing games. You are forbidden from flying in
your dreams.

  • Posted on: Mon, Jun 13 2005 1:03 PM

hazy infrastructure

By monster spank

i wanted to break bottles and hurl
chairs (but i didnt).
i couldve fucked her sister (but i didnt)
i wanted to kiss her everywhere
(not her and her sister but her)
but i didnt (i couldnt). i thought i was going to die
(but i didnt and couldnt).

  • Posted on: Sun, Jun 12 2005 2:51 AM

Our World of Words

Standard Fucked-up Procedure (SFP)

By monster spank

20% sleep. 24% smoke. 4% traffic. 8% caffeine.
4% images.2% water. 2% bluberry muffins. 1% crackers.
Oh my god she was cold today. Like death smiling at
you cold. Actually, even colder than that: it was the
complete opposite of Africa hot cold. I wasn't expecting
anything less from her (well, i kinda was)
but still, I was stunned.