She don't dream no more By monster spank i slept forever and when i wokeup forever i would never be the same forever. i can't wait forever. forever i wait. i am awake forever and when i slept forever i would never be the same forever. i don't wait forever. forever i don't wait. Posted on: Fri, Aug 5 2005 12:19 AM

Ramen Messenger By monster spank awaken, my akindred. Link Posted on: Wed, Aug 3 2005 11:40 PM

Foliage gliding instructions By monster spank its abrupt, the arrival of 2am and 4am... but even that has become cliche to me when i was reintroduced to the sunrise arrival of 6am. i'm sorry that i didn't wake you up when you woke up that i didn't wake you up. Posted on: Wed, Aug 3 2005 11:10 PM

Stop thinking too much By monster spank contrived and completely out of place. too obvious and too "does not belong here." complementary, perhaps. but everything shouldve been left as is. execute that motherfucker! Posted on: Tue, Aug 2 2005 11:42 PM

Five times two hours plus one By monster spank Every element random, except one. Instead of seven, there was only five. Arriving at the chosen destination without a map, lunch came first. Surrounded by only old things and left alone to wander, it began. The first garden sighted, a flowing fountain protected by a breeze. In the fountain, a turtle! Through an ancient door, all entered. On the walls, more paintings of people long dead. Behind the glass cases, countless curiosities. Three black tickets, three tiny plastic cups of iced tea. One blue stub, biscuits! The second sighting, a marvelous garden. In the garden, a more intricate fountain. In the fountain, fish! On the aged adobe stones, hungry doves! Surrounding all of these, other wondrous configurations. Watching over everything, a massive facade. (The old brick, witness to wars and other things.) To remember, two necklaces made of wood. Coffee with frothed milk and almonds, latte. Cigarettes smoldering under the umbrella, rain fell from the sky. Bumper to bumper, the journey home. A shaved eyebrow, paid back with straightened hair. Gathering one last time, food was shared. Content, satisfied. Imagining, pretending. Except one, every element random. :: Posted on: Tue, Aug 2 2005 2:17 AM

the soul of where i live By monster spank sensing and feeling for it at the wrong time and at the wrong coordinates caused delay and confusion. but ill find it again, eventually. thanks my akindred. it feels much closer now. :: Posted on: Mon, Aug 1 2005 2:05 AM

Billions of nerve cells called neurons By monster spank when? forever. why? because you are possessed. possessed? influenced or controlled by something (as an evil spirit or a passion). so when? whenever. why? because i am possessed. possessed? captivated or fascinated by something (as an evil spirit or a passion). so when? if ever. why? because you are possessed and i am possessed. possessed? you influenced and controlled by something me captivated and fascinated by something (as an evil spirit or a passion). so when? never. what next? nothing. so, more of the same? apparently, so. do you still dream? only when my eyes are closed. forever? forever. :: Posted on: Fri, Jul 29 2005 5:03 PM

Hesitant primordial valves By monster spank the x-ray confirmed that someone stole my heart and replaced it with this piece of shit contraption, when i wasnt looking. my search engine found me a perfect match. Posted on: Wed, Jul 27 2005 10:01 PM

Prolific processes denied By monster spank how fucking uncanny can it be when a fucking muddy puddle was staring at me while my fucking stupid mind was like fucking a mental hospital? i need to find some fucking brain cells to jumpstart the fucking production of some fucking thoughts... fuck that fuck it all. til my next fuck... have a fucking nice day! :: Posted on: Tue, Jul 26 2005 10:19 PM

Liquids from the sky By monster spank i walked in the rain and got my feet wet. won't let yours get wet. i said i'll carry you. Posted on: Mon, Jul 25 2005 6:55 PM

Do anything you want By monster spank I (re)discovered a new timezone: 5am (tho' it did seem familiar to me). although the sun was yet to reveal itself, there was a dark glow in the sky probably only seen by anyone looking... my entireness felt shredded from the blend of consumption(ess), sleeplessness, lightness... and the heaviness of all those little things at that moment. let me read you some more. comment one last time...it's 6am. wake up my akindred. :: Posted on: Sun, Jul 24 2005 11:21 PM

All things unconsidered By monster spank Posted on: Sat, Jul 23 2005 4:01 AM

Ten years in one second By monster spank desolate and thirsty. alone and hungry. bright and blurry. crazy and true. quiet and noisy. twisted and beautiful. evil and lovely. soft and thorny. fat and ugly. thin and happy. slim and sweaty. raw and tasty. alive and dead. read and reply. abrasive and nice. novel and cliche. profound and stupid. pirated and original. horny and prude. digital and handmade. forward and sideways. smiling and staring. curious and boring. imagining and realizing. i'll stop now. i'll start again. now. with you. i'll stop again. now. :: Posted on: Wed, Jul 20 2005 10:17 PM

No such thing as a straight line By monster spank There goes the heavens again mocking the earthbound. Making them stumble. Only the heartless monster took pleasure in the constant warping of the space-time continuum. To them it was not without its comedy to observe the weak take their daily mocking without self-regard. It was when the short scraggly one on the left shouted "change the channel to the weather station already!" that alarm gripped them. After all, Spank was in charge of the remote control today. Posted on: Tue, Jul 19 2005 9:42 PM

2-2-go By monster spank The sighting of two oxygen tanks coupled on an industrial wheelbarrow is a phenomenon perceived to be better than sex. Posted on: Mon, Jul 18 2005 9:32 PM

Failure of analysis (undescribable) By monster spank Stuck in bumper-to-bumper-to-bumper like a parking lot traffic jam. Amidst the squalid everything, barefoot innocence, smiling faces, and miserableness -- a defiant attack against reality painted happy green. A conglomeration (composition) of hopes, dreams, found objects, prized possessions, and more! Posted on: Mon, Jul 18 2005 12:32 AM

Intensely out of focus (denial) By monster spank Put it all in a bag, please. I've had enough. Stop wasting time inefficiently. The soup tasted saltier than salt. I couldnt speak again. internal revelation reruns, 36 hours, 7 beers, 13 cigarettes, rice, coffee, shades, inanities, korean products, umbrella (rain!), new billboard, one hidden smile, 30 euros, 24 floors, sirens, spring onion flavored crackers, politics, storewide sale, basement 3, door close button, instant ramen (wanton flavor), walking (regretting). It's time, again. can't wait. get settled, open my laptop, chat, read you, hear you, smoke another 13 cigarettes or so, sleep, then dream... can't wait anymore. can't stand this any longer. i want to see. i want to kiss. i want to touch. the one behind the words, the voice... soon. Posted on: Fri, Jul 15 2005 10:44 PM

Crush all meaning into oblivion By monster spank there was a conversation, an exchange of emails. mobile calls. what was said, forgotten. to not speak aches. inward stares require specs installed behind the eyeballs. external blankness must not reflect internal content. all lines are down. mental roadblocks dominate the route to salvation. look no further, the solution escapes... all of me. Posted on: Thu, Jul 14 2005 10:24 PM

Cesium Fountain Atomic Clock By monster spank it's always suddenly 2am unless its suddenly 4am. i gave up "killing time..." so i just go with the flow, walk really fast, drive like a maniac, and set my watch 15 minutes ahead, so instead of being 30 minutes late, i arrive disheveled only half that time behind schedule (late again!). it's silly, i know, but it works for me most of the time (sometimes i arrive too early, and i hate that). see? its 2am again! (or 1:45) Link Posted on: Thu, Jul 14 2005 2:03 AM

Enforced Structural Stupidity By monster spank Next time you start to destroy something, make sure you finish it. (There used to be a mountain here.) Posted on: Tue, Jul 12 2005 9:22 PM

Departureless By monster spank Drifting in and out of consciousness hypnotized by your voice, enthralled by your words. The last remembered scene, a friend's painful laughter. Now, all i hear is silence. i better pack-up and leave. It's time. Posted on: Mon, Jul 11 2005 10:49 PM

Another again not new undefinitions By monster spank Thought traffic forever stuck in a loop. Subroutines frozen. Tomorrow looks the same but maybe not as dark. What's next? The wasteland offers more of the same deep nothingness, an abyss with rest stops, drive thrus, and stopovers. Posted on: Mon, Jul 11 2005 1:26 AM

Lightcatcher: Crucifixconfig By monster spank i ran it spurts but stepped on the dog's foot. the entire spectrum, just shine the light on... Link Posted on: Sat, Jul 9 2005 8:35 PM

Banyanalities By monster spank /coerced to play a role in the play / / i didn't know what to do / / i just fell into it / / So, it begins, again / / the script without connection / / a continuous blur / /nothing is going anywhere/ / you were there/ /lead me/ Posted on: Fri, Jul 8 2005 3:19 PM

Oxydation By monster spank Drained and rusted, i forced myself awake. It wasn't such an awful day and unlike me, the night was young, offering more time to meditate my eyelids. Recover from the process of breathing air... Posted on: Wed, Jul 6 2005 8:33 PM

To feel you always. By monster spank Before the rain, i saw you looking. Posted on: Mon, Jul 4 2005 11:36 PM

Unpredicamentation By monster spank A wall asleep. See the dreams growing from below? They are weeds, I must destroy them. The interference disrupts the pattern. Tomorrow, I will ignore all nuances of self, smoke the joint of existence and get stoned on indifference. Only for me. Roll your own. Posted on: Sun, Jul 3 2005 11:00 PM

Post afterimage dementia By monster spank i still feel your soul upon me, enraged, but even that it is, the pause pleases me. Posted on: Sun, Jul 3 2005 3:33 AM

Totally Inebriated By monster spank Transformed into zombies, everyone proceeded to cross the threshold into the moral void. Posted on: Fri, Jul 1 2005 8:13 PM

it is, essentially. By monster spank it was, essentially. Posted on: Fri, Jul 1 2005 7:14 PM

superfuckingsexytree By monster spank where is it, the switch? i wish to extinguish your evil. Link Posted on: Thu, Jun 30 2005 5:31 PM

From the moment i wake up By monster spank But still even deeper than that, i felt a pang of undescribable sorrow. Link Posted on: Thu, Jun 30 2005 5:29 PM

Lights were shining inside my belly By monster spank Do you belong here? Are you here for the dessert? Both. Its gonna be superb you know, the dessert. Superb? I thought it was just some kind of gelato? It is, but the magic kind. You can't blend magic things into gelato. Who said anything about blending? You're gonna sprinkle it with magic? The magic's gone. where'd it go? There never was. Can I have more sushi? Posted on: Tue, Jun 28 2005 5:21 PM

Pathetic Setup #4 By monster spank On the stage with flashing lights, languid refreshments that remind... of another being. Posted on: Mon, Jun 27 2005 11:19 pm

don't stop harder By monster spank how do i get there? (how did i get here?) i gave you a map from my backpack. ( why am i here?) you promised me you'll lap dance. Posted on: Fri, Jun 24 2005 6:43 PM

i was wrong about promising that i saw her smile By monster spank your blood is so high and you keep using it on me. nourishment is what i need. gin tonics and a glass of water at the fox and hounds. Link Posted on: Thu, Jun 23 2005 6:40 PM

Encounterisms By monster spank the opposite of lightness... being an ironic ass. imagine if smith, sylvian, and hitchcock were a pop-acoustic trio and got together to beat up lloyd cole. but the day, it was fast and it was slow, you know that. we chat about it (if not every night, every fucking chance we get). the rain, so prevalent, there's a filmy, mossy growth on almost everything, i'll try to show you later. virtual time. i refuse to hear you. i refuse to read you. not tonight. i refuse to use an umbrella, i'd rather deny there's water falling from the sky. soaked, i emerge and enter the lobby, my clothes, my being, feeling heavy, cold and rusty. Posted on: Wed, Jun 22 2005 1:47 AM

Message from the Icarus Tree By monster spank don't jump to high, i might bite you. Link Posted on: Tue, Jun 21 2005 12:09 AM

hyphenation By monster spank but you left me hanging. Posted on: Mon, Jun 20 2005 1:03 AM

Just forget it about it By monster spank your face looks like a smiling paPaya TREE. but it's nice. Posted on: Sun, Jun 19 2005 3:07 AM

Light Catchers By monster spank they catch the sun and spin a kaleidoscope of lightbeams at the speed of light. dozens of them hang from trees in various configurations. at night, they emit rainbow reflections (almost invisible) from even the dimmest glow. their sexless, functional, and shiny selves doomed to the landfill because of buffer overruns, instead, they spin happily and endlessly to catch any luminance and reflect a more interesting and more beautiful point of view. Link Posted on: Sat, Jun 18 2005 8:12 PM

Temporary Internet Folder 2 By monster spank It felt like rain, an unfriendly conversation. One teaspoon of brown sugar only. She called back to say something almost predictable and said that was all. After everything, nothing? Tired and not hungry. Link Posted on: Fri, Jun 17 2005 10:20 PM

Brain Usage Warning (Critical) By monster spank Inbound: My brain is running out of thoughtspace and is processing everything in abrupt segments. Nothing is making sense. Helpdesk: Please remove some memories from this account, or ask the supreme administrator (awesomedictatorprincess)to increase your thought quota. You have currently used 90.44% of what your silly brain can absorb. Posted on: Thu, Jun 16 2005 4:35 PM

fivehundredseventysix By monster spank 24x24 Posted on: Thu, Jun 16 2005 4:28 PM

Unsettled Turning Signal Assembly By monster spank Please wake me up my alarm clock. I have lived this dream nearly long enough. I am prepared for stage-3 of the next vision. I promise not to drink beer by the grotto. If I do, I will not mock the statue of the tiny, lady god. My eyes are still closed although i hear the whining dog. Posted on: Wed, Jun 15 2005 11:00 PM

Not so unintentional pattern By monster spank Why are you treating me this way, like this? It just fits in the pattern of things in close proximity to my self-involvement. That's not good enough -- not a valid answer. Ok, where once our lives were intertwined, now i must destroy all nodes thrice and for all... disconnect! But i thought you loved the intertwinement and node management -- you thrived on it. Perhaps. But I Hate You. Oh. Would you like some coffee? Yes, actually that would be nice. I'm not trying to be nice. Yes, I know -- de-intertwining and node destruction. Can I have that cup of coffee now? Yes, but have it to go... take away. Oh. Ok. Posted on: Tue, Jun 14 2005 4:50 PM

Footprint of a tiny god. By monster spank No wonder everyone was laughing. Obscurity was no longer an option. Calendar when transience i meet. Nothing else will have impact. Go to sleep and stop playing games. You are forbidden from flying in your dreams. Posted on: Mon, Jun 13 2005 1:03 PM

hazy infrastructure By monster spank i wanted to break bottles and hurl chairs (but i didnt). i couldve fucked her sister (but i didnt) i wanted to kiss her everywhere (not her and her sister but her) but i didnt (i couldnt). i thought i was going to die (but i didnt and couldnt). Posted on: Sun, Jun 12 2005 2:51 AM

Our World of Words

Standard Fucked-up Procedure (SFP)

By monster spank

20% sleep. 24% smoke. 4% traffic. 8% caffeine.
4% images.2% water. 2% bluberry muffins. 1% crackers.
Oh my god she was cold today. Like death smiling at
you cold. Actually, even colder than that: it was the
complete opposite of Africa hot cold. I wasn't expecting
anything less from her (well, i kinda was)
but still, I was stunned.

SPANKTOGRAPHY

your words, your eloquence enthralls me. i close my eyes and i still see you. hear you. you are those tiny lights that leave its glow when i close my eyes.